Tomorrow

I know I am supposed to take it one day at a time but tomorrow is a court appointment. I have no idea what will happen and I really can't think too much about because if I do those bad thoughts will enter my mind. My mom has always said; "expect the worst but hope for the best". That is what I am going to do. Each previous time I have gone to court only bad things have happened so why should it be any different. I really don't know what we will be discussing because I have not spoken to my lawyer in over a week. The assistant DA wants to look at the bail (again) but my attorney states that it is a moot point. We discussed the bail at a previous hearing and I thought we would move on. One thing I have learned about our justice system is it moves very slow. My addiction to gambling caused all of my problems. I was always looking for the easy way out and in a delusional way I am still hoping for a miracle. I made this mess and I have to suffer the consequences. Unfortunately there are some many other people that are also suffering the consequences and to all of them I am so very sorry. Additionally, thank you to everyone for their heartfelt thoughts and prayers, I really do appreciate everything.